[orca-list] OT: What have I done?

[kendell clark <coffeekingms gmail com>]

hi all
This is going to be a long email, so if you don't have time to read it, 
just skip it. It's not much related to orca, but I'm deliberately 
posting it hear so that the most people will see it. Thisis a hard email 
for me to write and is off topic. I can't understand what I have done to 
alienate the blind linux community, yet this seems to be exactly what I 
have done. I posted an email to this list deliberately, rather than the 
speech-dispatcher list because more people subscribe hear and someone 
was likely to know the answer. I asked luke on irc first, but as I said 
earlier, I missed his message. I'm honestly gotten to the point where 
I'm approaching burn out. Right now I file bug reports for three 
desktops, gnome, mate, and cinamon, I'm a co developer of the sonar 
distribution and I help out fedora, when I have time to breathe, that 
is. I manage a git repository of espeak fixes. But in spite of all my 
effort, I don't seem to be getting anywhere. Before I get blasted, I'm 
well aware that accessibility resources are limited, it's why I took 
these tasks on. But except for joanie, who does fantastic work, most of 
the bugs I file don't get fixed. The reasons vary, but mostly revolve 
around no one knowing the accessibility interface. More and more I find 
myself looking over the other side of the fence, wondering if windows 
has this much trouble. I'm passionate about open source, but somehow I 
seem to offend people by my replies. I try to go out of my way not to 
complain, and to indicate that I'm not complaining, but somehow I get 
accused of ranting when I am not, or of not doing
 my homework when there just doesn't seem to be much in the way of 
online linux accessibility information. To those who help me, I am 
greatful. I don't know what I'm doing wrong but I'm not having the 
impact I want to have. I want to improve speech-dispatcher, and yet 
don't know the code well enough. I want to improve orca, yet I somehow 
irritate joanie despite every effort not to do so. The mate devs don't 
seem to know anything about accessibility so those bugs aren't getting 
fixed. The gnome people know but they seem to regard the entire 
accessibility infrastructure as a giant mess that needs to be 
redesigned, only no one wants to do it. My passion for open source  
seems to be waring away due to simple indifference. People know there 
are bugs, and yet they linger. Any replies to me should probably be sent 
off list, since this is not related to orca. Am I not filing good bugs? 
Is my approach wrong? I'm obviously doing something wrong because it 
seems other people's bugs are getting fixed.
Thanks for reading
Kendell clark