Re: I apology

[Maxim Udushlivy <maxim udushlivy gmail com>]

Toby Smithe wrote:
> I did not see these "evil things" you wrote, but I am sure everyone
> forgives you. Don't be so down on yourself; everything isn't awful.
>
>   
First of all, thanks to everybody for warm replies (I received private 
emails also). People were worried about me and I must say that it was 
the last stress, my imaginative conflict with Gnome and it is gone now. 
I feel like a happy kid, because it was quite a while ago when I 
apologized last time :)

With regards to evil things...

1. I said that I am "trying to be a Christian", but I was aggressive to 
say the least.

2. I said that my competitors are "broken bicycles", but they are not.

3. My jokes had double meaning with sarcasm, nationalism and pornography 
(e.g. "I am not an English lord", "the Great John's guideline", "was 
frightened for some reason", "not only to kiss" etc.).

4. I said that I do not seek leverage (i.e. don't want to play politics) 
but I was acting like a politician and in fact was trying to provoke 
people and manipulate the community into using my software. At the same 
time I accused you for being too political. Also, I was suggesting you a 
new political system. I was fooling myself that I can make Gnome better, 
but I was doing evil things in fact.

5. I used crazy rhetoric. For example I named Google's search as a "gate 
into the universe", although it is just a piece of software. I 
formulated the "Principle" and a metaphor about warring commander, both 
looks to me like a plain madness now, i.e. they have evil meaning.

6. I used a name of God's man, Gideon, as a name of the project, but I 
had no rights to do that.

7. I was pretending to be a visionary that may cure your problems, 
although I myself needed to be cured in the first place. In my letter I 
said that I have no authority and knowledge to point Gnome new 
directions, but I was doing exactly that thing.

8. In my letter I presented an ideal vision where I said "we live in the 
ideal world that have no troubles", although I knew that the Bible 
clearly states that heaven on Earth is only possible via the Kingdom of 
God (human beings cannot create heaven themselves without God).

9. Although I was pretending to be a Christian, I was appealing to the 
humankind's philosophies and wisdom. The true Christianity is based only 
on God's wisdom and the Bible, his Word.

10. I posted a troll about International Space Station. In that thread I 
was accusing Gnome and gtkmm for things that are almost nothing when 
compared with my attitude. I used ISS and university rhetoric as an 
example of how people of different nationalities may unite and again 
didn't say anything about the Kingdom of Jehovah God which, as the Bible 
promises, will be the kingdom for all nations with Jesus Christ as a King:

"And in the days of those kings the God of heaven will set up a kingdom 
that will never be brought to ruin. And the kingdom itself will not be 
passed on to any other people. It will crush and put an end to all these 
kingdoms, and it itself will stand to times indefinite" (Daniel 2:44)
http://www.watchtower.org/e/bible/da/chapter_002.htm#bk44

"And to him there were given rulership and dignity and kingdom, that the 
peoples, national groups and languages should all serve even him. His 
rulership is an indefinitely lasting rulership that will not pass away, 
and his kingdom one that will not be brought to ruin." (Daniel 7:14)
http://www.watchtower.org/e/bible/da/chapter_007.htm#bk14

"Look! The tent of God is with mankind, and he will reside with them, 
and they will be his peoples. And God himself will be with them. And he 
will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, 
neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things 
have passed away." (Revelation 21:3,4)
http://www.watchtower.org/e/bible/re/chapter_021.htm#bk3

I recently was studying the Bible with Jehovah's Witnesses, they give 
full and precise explanation of all Bible teachings. And some time ago 
when I had especially hard times with the disorder and was ready to die, 
studying the Bible and God's promises written there were giving me the 
reason to live. Because of those studies I now was able to recognize my 
mistakes and ask for forgiveness.

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